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A Change is A'comin'

Commencement is a few days away and Ordination a few weeks after that.  There are 'irons in the fire' regarding possible calls to ministry, and we wait upon the Lord.  As the Bishop said at our quiet day when he passed around a copy of our Ordination announcement, all that came before is now done.  The hoops, hurdles, and challenges of the process have been completed, and the parties involved are satisfied.  There is nothing more to be proven.  This is happening. 
                      
I continue to reflect upon the past six+ years since I left gainful employment and began walking this path.  Even when I left Visa, I myself, was not sure where all this was leading.  Now, ready to graduate from seminary and to be ordained a deacon in the Episcopal Church, Merton's prayer continues to ring true:

My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going.  I do not see the road ahead of me.  I cannot know for certain where it will end.  Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think that I am following your will does not mean that I am actually doing so.  But I believe that the desire to please you does in fact please you.  And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing.  I hope that I will never do anything apart from the desire.  And I know that if I do this you will lead me by the right road though I may know nothing about it.  Therefore will I trust  you always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death, I will not fear, for you are ever with me, and you will never leave me to face my perils alone.+++
               Thomas Merton, Thoughts in Solitude