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The Week For Goodbye

Week 20 of CPE at Goodwin House Bailey's Crossroads.  The final week.  The week for goodbye.

I can remember when I couldn't wait for CPE to begin.  Now there's almost the regret I can't make it continue.

Sadly, as I begin to make my goodbyes, some other residents have already made their farewells.  Death has taken some before I could say goodbye.  Not that it mattered to them.  I understand it mattered for me.  Our group tried to avoid the painful realization the end is near.  We have come to appreciate one another more and more and now the unit is coming to a close.  There appears to be a strong deisre to stay in touch.  There is talk of reunions.

I told my supervisor I expect to call to make a lunch date with him as his schedule will permit.  He said he'd like that.

Perhaps the desire to keep this going is my avoidance of what is next.  What is next?

It's daunting to see there's only 2 1/2 months between now and May 1.  That's the application deadline for Fall 2008 admission to VTS.

Today, my super said I tend to operate more from a position of what I don't know rather than what I do know.  He challenged me to consider the risks of saying "yes" or "no" to discernment. I feel called, but I'm intimidated by what's needed now.  GREs.  Applications.  Evaluations.  Physicals and Assessments.  Probably other things I don't even know just yet. 

It's crazy.  It's scary.  Lord, help me.