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Nobody Said Life Would Be Fair

I never want to receive another phone call like that one.  Ever.

Of the two possible outcomes explaining the blood abnormalities found in Gibbs, we heard the really bad option of the two.  Maybe I'm wrong to look at it that way, but that's just where I find myself right now.  It was either a congenital defect or exposure to a toxic element.  But it's not due to licking the outside of a bottle of anti-freeze or eating treated mulch.  Those may have been treatable, even fixable.  No, today we were told our baby boy has nothing resembling a right kidney and his left kidney isn't much to look at.  It seems Gibbs may have been so eager to make his entrance to this world that he skipped a service bay or two on God's assembly line.

Sometimes shit happens.  This is most definitely shitty.

It seems almost ironic to me my Philosophy class was just discussing what constitutes a "good life".  Most of us, including me, would hope that longevity would be a part of the equation.  But as both my sister and mother taught me, it's not quantity of life that is most important, but rather the quality of life.  Sadly, we test that now with the life of a sweet, innocent puppy hanging in the balance.  My sister and mother knew what was happening with them, and they made carefully carefully thought about, diligently prayed over, decisions for themselves.  The littl' dude doesn't get that option.  Does Gibbs know?  How could he know?

The only option we have is to love him as much as we can for as long as we have him.  And that's just what we'll do.  Love him lots while we can.  The prognosis is maybe 6 months to a year.  I've been reflecting back on how we met.  When we found him at the shelter, Mulligan picked him.  And Gibbs picked us.  I think he knew what he was doing then.  And as Chrissie wrote the other day, "he's where he needs to be".  With us. 

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mightyelmo
Jun. 22nd, 2008 12:19 am (UTC)
"Nobody Said Life Would Be Fair"

Tell me about it.....

Iz sowwy
(Anonymous)
Jun. 22nd, 2008 01:22 am (UTC)
Puppy
Dear David & Chrissie, I am so sorry. (This is Connie, BTW.) I know what your situation is like as we went through it with our darling Cookie, who had a congenital skin/connective tissue defect. She lived much longer than expected, dying peacefully of a probable aneurysm last Dec. 30. We had her for 3 1/2 years. It was totally worth it and totally heartbreaking. You and the doggies are in our prayers. Love, C & G
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