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Catching Up & Catching On

It had been about two months since I last sat with my spiritual director.  I'd cancelled our last scheduled time the morning after I learned my best friend growing up had been in a serious motorcycle accident.  A lot has happened since we last met, and today was 'catching up' day.  Amidst the sharing between the two of us, we both realized God working in our circles, and we offered mutual thanksgivings for God's grace and mercy.  It feels like there is plenty to do, and much to accomplish, and yet there is no worry or urgency about any of it.  Things still need to be done, but anxiety does rest within or push it.  There are mini-transitions and shifts that have become evident.  There is much happening with all those who we love that concern us, but it doesn't drain us.  It was easy to sit in silence and good to listen to everything about, and then begin peeling back the layers to find that still place where God waits to greet us.  There is comfort and solace in that place.

I'm beginning to get things that were won't continue to be.  And new things will take their place.  I sense God moving me in ways and places I have not known or felt before.  I feel the comfort of God's presence and the assurance that what God thinks I need, God will provide.  I have failed from time to time to maintain my Lenten discipline, but I don't beat myself about the head and shoulders.  I look for each new day as a chance to begin anew.  Maybe that is what it is all about.  There is no try, there is only do or do not.  But think to do, and regardless of whether or not you do today, you can do tomorrow.  That I think about it and don't sweat it is something new for me.

Good for God.  But even better for me.

Thank you, Lord, for your mercy is great.  I praise your name, hoping that all I do pleases you.  Please instill in me those gifts and talents and works I need to glorify your name.  I want to help build up the Kingdom of God here on earth.  I'm open, willing and eager to be your agent for change.  Please continue your work in me to transform me into that which you would have me be and do.  Thank you for your continued abundant blessings, and for the peace you place in my heart.  Amen.