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Contemplating Ontological Change

Sunday, I returned to my home parish for worship, that last time as a layperson.  The rector made mention at announcements about the ordination next Saturday, in which four of the six ordinands had Grace connections: me and another are from GEC, there's a classmate who served GEC for field-ed, and then one who has since been called to be the next associate.  

Gifts abound everywhere.  The parish fellowship committee is actively rallying the congregation to assist with things for the reception.  The rector has asked if the church could give me a stole (I've collected a nice array of stoles from my father, my field-ed parish, and now my father-in-law); I said an all-seasons stole would be helpful and remind me of my home parish.

Rising from the altar rail after receiving communion, the choir started singing "Veni Sancte Spiritus."  Oh boy.  Right way, I had that sense my life was really about to change.  I made my way back to our pew, composed enough to get there without crying, but then surrendered after my knees touched the kneeler.  Thanking God for trust, courage and love to keep moving forward in this call.  Grateful for so many family, friends and neighbors who have encouraged me and loved me along the way.  Knowing not what to expect going forward, but open to the possibilities for whatever God leads us to do.

This week should be interesting.  In some ways, I'm glad to have some major house cleaning as a distraction.  But things are percolating on the ministry opportunity landscape, and paperwork+ is needed to begin a volunteer chaplaincy at a nearby hospital to fill the time between ordination and the start of parish ministry.  I find I cannot fully articulate my feelings at the moment.  But I am glad for them and excited about the future.  

So for now, I will contemplate a portion from the Consecration of the Deacon in the Book of Common Prayer (BCP 545):

Make him, O Lord, modest and humble, strong and constant, to observe the discipline of Christ.  Let his life and teaching so reflect your commandments, that through him many may come to know you and love you.  As your Son came not to be served but to serve, may this deacon share in Christ's service, and come to the unending glory of him who, with you and the Holy Spirit, lives and reigns, one God, for ever and ever.  AMEN. 

Yes, life for me and for us is changing.  And yet, it is always changing.  But this IS a tad bit different.  Thank you, Lord, for your mercy is great.

Almighty Father, your Seeking Servant prays for guidance.  Amen.